Another thing that has made this last year particularly sad has been all the good byes. There has been a lot of them. Besides losing some friends that were probably worth losing, there were also some friends I didn't want to say goodbye to. Like Colleen. She was wonderful and I loved sitting around listening to her witty jokes. But she had moved here from the East coast and I think her soul never left Maine, and so last month she moved back there.
Also Jodi. She left a couple weeks ago and is going to Scotland for Steve to go to school there. I don't think I had ever had a friend like her. She understood my spiritual side and my artistic side and how they go together. I gave her this little list of things that we did together that were good memories. I blurred out the ones that were inappropriate or personal, so you can't see those.
I was going to write something hopeful, like "now I'm ready to make new friends". But I'm kind of not. I don't really have time for people. Perhaps I should change that. I'll decide later though.
The good thing is, there is one friend that has stuck around for a long time, my best friend- Matt. It's a good thing I've had him, because he gives me a whole lot of hugs, even when I don't want them, but especially when I am sad. And I would hate saying goodbye to him- that's why I don't wake up every morning at 7am when he's leaving for work.
Goodbye. For now.