Another thing that has made this last year particularly sad has been all the good byes. There has been a lot of them. Besides losing some friends that were probably worth losing, there were also some friends I didn't want to say goodbye to. Like Colleen. She was wonderful and I loved sitting around listening to her witty jokes. But she had moved here from the East coast and I think her soul never left Maine, and so last month she moved back there.
Also Jodi. She left a couple weeks ago and is going to Scotland for Steve to go to school there. I don't think I had ever had a friend like her. She understood my spiritual side and my artistic side and how they go together. I gave her this little list of things that we did together that were good memories. I blurred out the ones that were inappropriate or personal, so you can't see those.
I was going to write something hopeful, like "now I'm ready to make new friends". But I'm kind of not. I don't really have time for people. Perhaps I should change that. I'll decide later though.
The good thing is, there is one friend that has stuck around for a long time, my best friend- Matt. It's a good thing I've had him, because he gives me a whole lot of hugs, even when I don't want them, but especially when I am sad. And I would hate saying goodbye to him- that's why I don't wake up every morning at 7am when he's leaving for work.
Goodbye. For now.
3 comments:
You don't wake up at 7AM because you're not a morning person....
I love you too!
naomi... this is about your last post but i didn't want to post until i read this post...
anxiety and you (i'm sure that's the name of a book somewhere)
i feel like it has begun to overrun you but i think you're going to feel some relief already as soon as the kids go back to school and you can paint more. the world is a happy place when we paint. you have dreams and you haven't been able to pursue them all summer. you'll find life again. i think i've seen lots of different sides of you and i don't believe this is where you'll stay stuck. i really wish we were in denver still... i know this journey will be great, but i'm longing for the end of it and settling down. i want to be with you through this hard stuff. i want to have art club and get to be there for your mother/daughter show and when you do your "sixth demension" (i can never remember the name your dad came up with for it but i think it's brilliant) show. hmmm... i think i might have to fly back for that=)
i think we should skype ac=) maybe once we get to scotland and i have a place to set up my "studio".
i love you.
tell the kids and matt i said "heidi hoe!"... or just hi=)
i love my note from you. it's coming with me to scotland. it's going up in my studio along with any letters the kids send=) i'll try to write them as soon as i get there and include my address...
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